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Holding On To Good

i Apr 17th 2 Comments by

DSCN1977My son reaches up and cradles my cheeks in his hands as he stares longingly into my eyes. It feels like he is reaching into my soul, sees who I am, and still loves me unconditionally. He hunkers down and cuddles into my chest before quickly popping back up to stare into my eyes. Climbing me like a jungle gym it seems he can’t get close enough. As he searches my face, the emotion is overwhelming.

It’s the morning after a colossal tantrum that resulted in me banishing his race cars for the entire next day. Initially, I think this physical charm is preceding a request to play Angry Birds or race cars, but he never speaks a word. I wonder if I have ever looked at him with such intensity and if I am capable of such undistracted peace. I’m reminded of God’s request for us to come to him with childlike innocence. God has gifted children with the purest minds. They can wipe the slate clean and see goodness in others. I pray my son never faints in his ability to love and deliver such amazing attention to another and, more importantly, to God.

It’s my goal to recover that pure goodness that, God provided, has been gifted to me through my child. If I am overcome each time my son approaches me with loving gestures, I can understand how my Father in Heaven must feel when I do the same for Him.

You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.

Jeremiah 29:13

As we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen.

For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.

2 Corinthians 4:18

Choo-Choo Chocolate!

i Apr 3rd 1 Comment by

Our countdown begins… 33 days until Ryan flies out for Thailand! We are so excited but overwhelmed by the amount of preparation still left for us to do.

The to-do list feels daunting at times with a toddler and a newborn at our side. I was feeling a little sour yesterday with all the commotion. I woke up feeling fresh and focused after an overdue shower. At one point, I raced my son around the house and was actually faster. It might have had something to do with the chocolate I ate, but today feels good!

I received an awesome text from my brother, Adrian, offering out of pure “inspiration,” he says, to set up our Facebook business and Fundly accounts. He has such a good heart. My oldest brother, Ethan, is incredibly business savvy and sacrificial of his time; he has been truly helpful with advice and setting up the website. God has blessed me with the world’s best brothers!

Mid-June, with my little boys in tow, we will be reunited as a family. Ryan is leaving earlier than us to start the agricultural season in Thailand. After arriving, the land must be tilled, the corn planted, and the fruit trees fertilized and pruned. He must also start the aquaponics project for the fish ponds.

The boys and I will be in the air and at the airports for over 30 hours! It seems only reasonable that Ryan will work hard to put the new apartment in order so I can pass out upon arrival.  However, as any second-time-mom would understand, that will not actually happen. And anyone who has moved a child into a 12 hour different time zone also understands that will not happen.

A mom can dream.

Casting a Net

i Mar 30th No Comments by

We would like to thank River City Church for helping create this video.

Hooking a fisherman

i Mar 30th No Comments by

Through a series of dreams, it has been revealed that we are called to the mission field. In one particular dream, the beautiful symbolism of walking down a narrow dirt path with several young, Asian children leaning from open windows of street houses holding fishing poles above our heads, is a simple reminder that by loving the children of the safe home we will be helping raise children who will become powerful fishers of men. Besides being fed the Gospel each day they will be fed the fish that will be grown on the land. It is also a revealing of our calling towards full-time Christian mission work. A fishing pole is useful in catching a fish that is ready to be hooked; it was us who were being fished along the narrowly traveled path toward life as missionaries. We’ve taken the bait!

When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon, “Launch out into the deep and let down your nets for a catch.”… And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish, and their net was breaking… For he and all who were with him were astonished at the catch of fish which they had taken… And Jesus said to Simon,“Do not be afraid. From now on you will catch men.”

Luke 5:4-11 (NKJV)